Ang mga nilalaman ng blog na ito ay solong pag-aari ng may-akda (bukod na lang kung sinabi niyang hindi...) at mahigpit na ipinagbabawal ang pagkopya, pamimirata at paggamit ng mga ito sa ibang paraan.
Pero kung ayaw niyong papigil... bahala kayo. Meron naman tayong tinatawag na KARMA!
@ Asar ako dahil... Sira ang PC ko!!! ARGH! I knew that ancient artifact was about to give up one of these days!!! Tigang ako sa internet! DOUBLE ARGH!
@ Currently addicted to... ABS-CBN's Stained Glass. See latest post (May 05: Job hunting) for details. Ang guwapo kasi ni Dong Gun Oppa talaga!!!
@ Kras kong ilegal si... John Vladimir Manalo ng Goin' Bulilit. Need I explain kung bakit "ilegal" ang pagka-kras ko dito???
@ Latest hobby... Researching about Seoul, Korea and learning how to speak in Korean for a fan fiction I'm writing entitled "Cloudy Eyed Girl."
@ Plug lang... Michael Cruz' Official Site is now online! Check it out!
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And I love you so
And I love you so The people ask me how How I've lived 'til now I tell them I don't know I guess they understand How lonely life has been But life began again The day you took my hand And yes I know, how lonely life can be The shadows follow me And the night won't set me free But I don't let the evening get me down Now that you're around me And yes I know, how lonely life can be The shadows follow me And the night won't set me free But I don't let the evening get me down Now that you're around me
magic sing!!! | an iPod! | mini mp3 player | SONY discman | 5 megapixel digicam with firewire | a new cellphone with hi-res camera | a new PC monitor and keyboard set
Beatles Album Collection | Michael Jackson's HIStory | Eraserheads Anthology | The Calling's 1st and 2nd album | a new guitar | Sugarfree's Dramachine
Angels & Demons by Dan Brown | Five People You Meet in Heaven by Mitch Albom | Pugad Baboy 1-17 by Pol Medina (complete collection) | Secrets of the Code (Guide to reading The Da Vinci Code) | Like Water for Chocolate by Laura Esquivel
Will & Grace Seasons 1-7 | Queer Eye for the Straight Guy | My Boyfriend is Type B (Korea)
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.songs in my head.
.most abused words.
"Alam kong hindi niya kasalanang magmahal ng iba, pero sana hindi ka niya sinasaktan." - text ni Beb (02.01.05)
* Tuesday, May 3 *
I'm getting so frustrated!!!
When I printed my resignation letter almost three months ago, I felt relief fill my chest. No more sleepless nights, no more work-related stress, no more sickening feeling in the stomach whenever I commit mistakes... none of that crazy crap I've been having for eleven months.
For the past weeks, however, I've been subjected to unexpected stress even when I am mostly at home with my family. Certain issues arose when our family vacationed in Baguio, and until now, these issues have been bothering me like crazy. How crazy? Well... its enough to make me cry every other day, think and rethink about my career paths, and somehow, needlessly worry about the future.
I've never felt this way before, even when I was still studying and in college. Right now, I feel so useless to my family. Last year, when I was still working, I used to give half of my salary to my mom. It was not much, but I knew they went somewhere... like the grocery, the water bill, the cable bill, or my sister's school service fee. Now, I have nothing to give, and I feel very bad about it.
It's an ego thing, I know. Masakit sa ego ko na wala akong naitutulong ngayon sa pamilya ko, samantalang dati kahit kaunti meron akong naibibigay. Sometimes I catch myself thinking if I made the right decision and left my very first job. Haaayyy... fonyetah. I'm growing old na talaga.
One more thing, I'm very frustrated about my little sister. She is an incoming freshman this school year, and she took summer classes (that ended just last week) to brush her up on Mathematics and English. Unfortunately, it seems that her summer classes didn't do much for her.
I'm not saying that my sister is dumb. She is probably one of the smartest kids in school in different aspects. She is a musical person, and she likes tinkering with little mechanical stuff. Hindi lang talaga niya hobby ang mag-aral at magbasa. She would choose MYX and Link TV over her textbooks anytime.
Hindi nga dapat ganun. I always tell her she has to have the initiative to study. High school na siya, at hindi ganoon kadali ang High school life. Siyempre, been there, done that. Especially because I went to the same High school as her, kaya alam ko ang mga puwedeng mangyari sa kanya if she doesn't shape up. Masasayang lang ang tuition fee niya kung ibabagsak niya ang freshman year niya. Lalo na dahil sobrang hirap kami ngayon maghagilap ng tuition fee niya.
I want my sister to get the best education possible, but I also want her to see that life is not as easy as she thinks it is. Hindi lang puro text, TV at butingting ang dapat niyang inaatupag. She should at least show us, her family, that she's making an effort to learn.
Ngayon, naghahanap ako ng matinong trabaho. Sumusubok mag-sideline nang kaunti. Pero ang hirap pa rin. Nararamdaman ko ang hirap ng Pilipinas. Grabe na talaga.
Halimbawa na lang, last week, nagpunta ako sa job fair sa SM Megamall. Andaming tao, kahit pasara na ang fair nung dumating kami. I was kind of disappointed however, because most of the participants of the job fair were call centers. While I have nothing against call centers (I heard they pay well and have lots of benefits for employees), I'm not really keen into entering that kind of environment. I would most probably get bored, because I don't like staying in one stationary place for a long time. I like a job which is always on-the-go. Always running, always moving... sort of like my old job, but with better work environment and compensation.
There are so many people looking for a job nowadays. Tanda lang na talagang hikahos na ang bansa. Kaya naman hindi mo masisisi ang iba kung hanapin nila ang kapalaran nila sa ibang bansa... like my bestfriend, Macri, who'll be leaving for Canada to be a caregiver.
Napaisip na nga rin ako nito eh. Paano kung mangibang bansa na rin kaya ako? Baka maging mas succesful ako roon, baka mas matulungan ko ang pamilya ko kung doon ako magtatrabaho. Pero puwede ring maghirap ako doon lalo, o matagalan bago makakuha ng magandang trabahong gusto ko.
Isa lang ang sigurado ko. Kung mangingibang bansa ako, mamamatay ako sa lungkot.
I'm currently listening to the Stained Glass soundtrack, and Dong Gun Oppa's "And I love you so" which he sang for his first motion picture, "My boyfriend is Type-B." Thanks so much to Michi for taking time to burn a Lee Dong Gun collection for me. Kahit hindi ko naiintindihan yung mga kinakanta niya, nararamdaman kong mahal niya ako! (AS IF!!!) Harharhar!
Okay, I'm warning you guys. You might think I'm going crazy, but this is just how I am.
Tanong: "Bakit parang malungkot ka?"